A note about the blogging

As you can see I have not blogged a dream for a while. I also no longer plan to do so.
It is partly because people take my blogs too seriously, therefore I have removed some as well.
The other part is because I have been having so much nightmares that I do not want to remember or write down.
The rest of the members can do what they want however.
I resign.

A music festival

It was evening and we went to an incredibly busy music festival. There was the rock music section which was outside. There was also a Dj-ing section what some lame DJ was talking about earlier in the record store. That hall was almost empty. The Hardhouse tent was a bit more busy. I lost the friend I came with somewhere in the busy queue at the entrance. Later I found him sleeping on the floor in a tent without any musicians. After have hidden and ran the last night we needed some rest.

Running around the place

I was on a plastic boat, half a kilometer from the shore. There was very little other traffic there and I ran my hand through the water. I saw a dark shadow and noticed a dolphin arising from the water. He pulled me to the other side of the sea, only about 5 km wide, and I arrived on land. I had my study books and my cat in my arms.
I left the boat unattended and walked past a lifeguard post.

After going to the town area, I followed the street signs and wondered what the address was again of a friend there. I looked around and remembered looking it up on a map on the internet. I followed the roads and went up some unstable stairs. Someone was standing behind me and he told me they should fix it. There were people inside the building that should just do it immediately. He asked me to jump from the stairs into the second floor and find them. So I did, and I ran through the dark. In the end of the corridor lay about 5 men sleeping in sleeping bags. I woke up the youngest and asked him to fix the stairs. He was sleepy and simply did not feel like commencing. Meanwhile the man behind me on the stairs was also there and made him do it. I sought further and noticed some signs on the streets had not only dutch streetnames, but also dutch direction posts to sightseeing places. Apparently I was in a dutch neighborhood as the people standing next to me looking for directions were also dutch.

I really could not remember the streetname, but saw a bakery on one of the appartment doors. I went inside and it was a small private lunchroom. I got into conversation with the owners and then noticed my books were missing. I must have lost them somewhere along the way. I left my cat there and ran back. I sought , but I could not find it anywhere.

Commodore 64 demoparty in Holland

I was in a Commodore 64 party in Holland. It cost 70 euros to get in, I got this blue hand banner or what you call the thing you put in your wrist..

I had to run away from hollow, blue-from-the-inside cows that looked like the mix of a ghost and a moose also sometimes they looked like elephants. In the dream, my mother had even told that there are moose-looking cows in Holland.

Eeveryone was into some kind of virtual race driving.. which required a small physical toy-car or part of it. Then it had some microchips in it that formulated similar car in the game. Someone called LisaZ was giving me lessons in how to drive, but I sucked still and many enjoyed my failures.

I met many of the C64 scene people in real life and they seemed so different than what I have always thought of them guys... they all were actually nice people, and very human.

There was some kind of thing where you could buy a ticket and maybe win something... there were odd interview questions to people at random, then AMJ asked me something. He first asked if I had been called yet, and then repeated 'hello' until I answered (only then realizing he was talking to me) .. but just before he did, he answered himself a quick question which was "What did you say to your father" just when I thought my own answer to that, he said that he had said "I don't like you very much", and it was exactly same answer as mine! Actually, then I looked him with an amazed look on my face and he thought that it was just because of what he had said to his father, but it was really because he had stolen my answer right from my head, hehe! Many questions were like "Who (scener) loves you the most" and "Who (scener) do you love the most" and I realized I couldn't even answer those questions .. But many sceners had no problem with them.

I was gonna go somewhere soon but then I kinda understood it was a whole-weekend computer party and I had no rush anywhere so I just sat down in front of my computer and tinkered with it while there was something going on and turned off some lights..

Then the dream got kinda scary, I was walking in the fields near the computer party (an odd detail about this dream is that I looked at my wrist-banner and I could -clearly- see the details, it stating 'Holland' and '70 euros' and I bet I could even recognize the font if someone showed it to me - usually I don't remember details about dreams).. enjoying the scenery and the weird cows, I realized their eyes and mouth were totally white and glowing and I could see right through them, and that they were actually HOLLOW, and glowing blue light very faintly from the inside when you looked deep enough. I could actually see through one cow and see even through the next cow who was following it, running towards me like crazy ..

I tried to outrun them but I couldn't, I don't remember exactly what happened in the dream but it became really scary and I had to wake myself up! A couple of times, because I didn't have the strenght to wake up the second time .. then I got mad at the universe for first making it so difficult to get to sleep and then making it so difficult to awaken (it's a difficult moment when your body is paralyzed but your mind is awsken and the mind is soon sinking back into sleep without a hope of a non-nightmare dream and you wish to wake up but have to summon all your strenght for it) .. that I decided to wake up no matter WHAT!! And I did, with pure willpower. I was even a bit impressed that I could do it so determinedly, hehe.

I just realized in that dream I had misjudged many of the Commodore 64 scene people and thought negatively of some eventhough they were nice guysand gals in real life and treated me (eventually) like a human being. I actually felt some kind of kinship towards everyone and couldn't wait for the party to go on and all the demos start etc. It was a great computer party!

losing it ALL

I bought a lot of carefully selected stuff from this place that was like a supermarket but bigger and better, it sold things you can't normally buy. I filled my shopping cart.. it took a long time, maybe hours to do this. Finally I was satisfied with what I had bought and paid and went outside to look for my car. I realized I had forgotten something, went back in to ask some clerk a question or something. When I came back, my shopping cart with all it's stuff was gone! I panicked and then I tried to find my car. It took a long time, but finally I found it. When I tried to enter it, I realized I didn't have the car key anymore - I had lost it too! At some point I even lost the car, someone had stolen it I guess. I broke down with tears and desperation.. I lost everything I held valuable, I also lost the will to live.. That was total panic, fear, desperation and sadness at the same time.. I didn't know what to do or how to get home or anything.. There was a part where I also lost my favorite video game in an arcade too. When I woke up, I felt still devastated by losing everything .. but when I realized it was only a dream, I felt really relieved! It took me a long time to recover, however, and it was strange how long time it actually took before I realized I actually live in this world, in this apartment, who I actually was etc. The dream felt so real, the feeling was so deep that waking up was totally surreal to me.